i got to wear a sweater today.

Coming home from very lonely places, all of us go a little mad: whether from great personal success, or just an all-night drive, we are the sole survivors of a world no one else has ever seen.
- John le Carre

this quote appeared to me today. i think about loneliness a lot. i read on wikihow: how to not feel lonely (even when surrounded by people). apparently is the quality not quantity of your interactions.

i went to hear a presentation fro dreamworks today. i haven't seen an animated movie of theirs since... hmm. i can't remember. i've been wanting to see 'the prince of egypt' and 'kung fu panda' and i'll get there.

the presentation was inspiring and terrifying.

i find myself thinking: what do i want to do? i think maybe 'concept art' visual development. wow, you have to be aMAZing to get these jobs. something like 33000 applicants pursued a career at dreamworks last year. they hired 55 people.

but then i think: this is the closest i've ever been to DOING something that i want. i can't defeat myself. i must work hard and think positively and get there. and expect the ideal to happen.

and that is my biggest challenge.